Obstacles

If life where a movie, I might be at the part where the plot twist comes. You know, that part of the story where the hero who has suffered a great sorrow or catastrophe and is valiantly prevailing through seemingly impossible circumstances is suddenly thwarted from her goal by an unseen misfortune. Why me? How could this happen? I am a good person and I deserve better!

Yes, I deserve to have all the happiness and abundance imaginable, as I am sure you do. However, sometimes I get in my own way. I don't know about you, but most of the obstacles that come my way are not generated "out there", but are held somewhere within me. You know, in the shadowy, fear based underbelly of the psyche that I don't want anyone to know about. Ugh!

Why am I bringing that up? Because it's true and that is where most of my obstacles come from. Early on I learned that my very existence hinged upon the good opinions of others. As a result I became terrified of failure. Needless to say, I am not perfect and I have failed. Regardless of knowing that I have failed and lived to see the next day, my ego still wants me to believe that in failure I will cease to exist. So, even if I have successfully charted a course through the Unknown Zone and I can see the far shore shimmering on the horizon, I will somehow create a storm that will keep me from reaching that shore. This is great when it is in the movies, but this is my life and I am not ready to beach the boat until I have reached the goal.

Queue up music for Rocky....by identifying that the true obstacle is within me, it is much easier to shift the circumstance that is outside of me. I can't control the "out there". I CAN decide that I am going to over-ride the notion that failure = death. I can re-commit to my course through the Unknown because even if I do fail, I am writing the movie and I will end it my way.