Saturday, July 30, 2011

Chapters


Last night after eight and a half years Tim and I finally got the last of my things out of storage. Storage units are interesting things. Aside from an insane money pit, they hold a slice of your life at the time that you place your life inside and close the door.


Here are some of the things that I have uncovered in the treasure trove of my unit.

  • An opened bag of rawhide dog chews. Just waiting for a dog to chew them.
  • Sample bottles of make up, shampoo and hand lotion. (Think about using these after 8 years of frozen winters and baking summers)
  • Very melted candles. Did I not think they would melt?
  • LOTS of area rugs! What?
  • 2 huge plastic bins filled with my clothes. Is there a statute of limitations on very outdated clothes – including all the “fancy” underwear that I didn’t think I would need at Kripalu?
  • Do-dads and knick-knacks. Yes the boxes were labeled as such.
  • Boxes and boxes of picture frames. (Roger did not like blank walls)
  • Not to forget, every card, letter or note that I ever received in my entire life. Yes, boxes of those too.

There was the good stuff too, like the books and dishes. However, aside from items like pots and pans, a television, and a vacuum, which Tim took from the unit over the years, what I uncovered is a picture of my life on January 31, 2003. Granted, I thought that my treasures would only be tucked away for six months. I had no idea that I would come back 8.5 years later and not need those sample bottles of shampoo.


Seeing the empty unit, I felt a chapter of my life end and now, a new chapter begins. I am home again. Now what do I do with those bottles of shampoo?


Just kidding.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Seeds of Desire

The obstacle today is my desire for the known. The gift is being at peace with the unknown.


I do like a good surprise, if I KNOW it is going to be a good surprise. Every day of life could be surprise, but unconsciously I create my days with as few surprises as possible. Hedging bets, planning, list making, Plan A, Plan B, looking for the downside, are all strategies that I have adopted over the years to protect myself. Then there is the “routine” – get up, walk the dog, meditate/yoga, eat breakfast, get dressed, sit down to work, take the dog for the long walk, back to work, lunch….we all do it.


All of this planning and routine building is just keeping me from surprises. Yikes, I am attached to only the good surprises! I try to avoid the bad ones.


The wise woman does not confuse

The road map with the road

Or indulge in dogmatic thinking.

She knows she can paint

The ocean by dipping her brush in it,

For she is the sea and the brush

And the artist of her perceptions.

Heal your ignorance,

Discover your wisdom,

Awaken the Seer. (24, 25, 26)


Yoga, Power and Spirit: Patanjali the Shaman

Alberto Villoldo


Finding peace today is my willingness to experience the surprises of the day without my attachment to the outcome.