As a young girl my idea of
the best life ever was having my own pony in the back yard. Then, as a teenager
my best life included a pop star boyfriend and a closet full of the coolest
clothes. With each passing decade my best life scenarios have shifted so much
that during the epicenter of parenthood I think the thought of a hot bath and
dinner out was the best thing.
In fact, somewhere along the
journey of my life, the magic of a pony in the backyard was replaced by the
idea that I needed to make a living and pay the bills. Over time, the best life
ever became being able to pay the bills with a “little” left over. I was fine
with that. I stopped dreaming. Just so you know, I have a great life, filled
with adventure and my wonderful children and lots of love. I just lost my sense
of amazing possibilities and settled for too many ideas that were attainable.
Last week, I decided that I
was going to give myself 6 months to re-define, re-asses, re-design my mission
and my life - again. In short, stepping back into the Unknown Zone. I love what
I have created in my life, I just know that there are some aspects that still
reflect outworn notions of settling for the attainable and it is time to make a
shift. Ironically, I decided to shift my life in 6 months on June 21, which
makes the 6-month deadline for a new me December 21, 2012. To heck with doom and gloom end of the
world predictions, if I am going to step back into the Zone to re-design myself
there had better be a 2013!
I mean really, if the world
does end, wouldn’t I want to go out with a bang as the best me that I can be?
Wouldn’t I want to dream up a pony or a hot rock star boyfriend? Or more than
just a “little” left over at the end of the month? Just saying.
So what does this really
mean? A new job, a move, a new book group….what?
It isn’t about making
changes to change. It is about trusting in a journey of discovery-and this time not just clinging to safety, but finding out if the idea of who I am and what lights me up every day can be enough. Can who I am and what I do become aligned in such a way to create a whole new way of being me? A way of being that includes the ability to see beyond the safe and attainable and to vision a way to sustain myself and live my purpose with joy, light and love?
The first step is
taken. I have alerted the world to
my plan. Now comes the fun and scary part. Just sitting with it, writing down
all my thoughts, dreaming a little and not getting caught up in fear, because
shift implies shifting and the what ifs……yikes, the what ifs are endless. But
now is the time to discover the destination and set the course. Let's begin.
